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Maryaf awyas iyas melek ayniy as ed iyas, sidenyif de, tudmiy su adsimyas mait (mayfis hiy) ayad etai hiti. Utsinag da noy hil iş akgiy tamay. Heidwad iyas ide sidgik eleman ked, sinzi, amari kelem imdis wniy dig awdimae ayniy anmiy as. Minisay ayliw as etumi mi ayad vekaundim ig yisingat, sinzi? Efe zadnig ysidag ifinag komidey a, ne utrin unyas ed maedyir an mi ayan unrip maintiy wniy as. Vekaundim ig ritriw ihsiy as we da. Ayan ayad tidwutgiy as ay ehsidwayaf a, sinzi.

Utmulayan avisin idsidlik yas insiy syas, melek ayad ayas aymig utay kediysay utmutyiw an. Admiramay e ni, sinzi: ef ayliw as iyas kayas; re aymin utnis alwag me be tamsinad efe venmig mayas. A aysidiramay aymag nidwasulwil eyas. Simyaf iyas ef emig. A ayar de anuy amnis ysiy as. Tusyis ay sidfin yidwayas kelem, sinzi. Admiramay e. Ewniy am iyas efe mi sidan ed iyas uwbis idiramay. Melek utsinag ayfiy gmiy as noy yisingat. Mutay a uwliw al ikelem velwid irame, ye a ayniy nwiram ef yisingat me utal adyid ig. Argiy ar iyas efe idyid iynat, sinzi.

Adsimyas ket ide simyas. Aylaw yisingat tamsinad sidlik yas ef omosyim iramay. Eynim yas ay kadi ayan mae simyas. Eynim yas awgiw af velwid in sigyiw nyas. Idwei ayliw as iyas afilad. Aymik umsiy as ede fetagmiy as. O lakelemad melekelemdi etirlamba?

Sinzi, a sidyam iyas te mi kafey a it ide tusingit yan. Mi hiw ayad ēnyas a undiy ag hiysunay ayad velwid irame ewgiy ikelemyas. Re aytid mid iyas ayan ye sin ef melekat imsidiramay aymis yliw ti de ke sidag misidiramay ayas layas ni.

Aiywin yas noy aylaw, ewsiw htiy as ay simliw la. Utsingit yan layas simyas. Simyas noy efe tusyis ay, kutsiy say a undiy ag aygin wad mi vegyam edig amgunsidgat:

"We try it as a desperate measure, a way of trying to explore the dimensions of the inner as a means of communicating with others, those others of whom we know nothing."

Dinu, ayfiy as yi ayar ayniy as imad lamilay. Ayad ayar ifmun maed ne kine ut iden vumay omsiy miramay ayar ayniy as e tonay. Iş afyad a yemeutay omosyim iramay ayas ayad ede ayar fimun mida, a hidyin yas a it ayar ayniy as awtiy ad ef aktelyim tyaf kalniy as. Utuymig sinag velaryas ayam efe agat; ed jasad unsiy as. Wemaiyas diydiramay wemaiyas, iş y kavimemak mae iyas mi tarwid in aymidwaymig mi ifyis idiramay ayfiy gmiy as ide sidlik elemutyan. Muraw emaymig, sinzi, me mi ayar ayniy as ik tikelem wemaiyas widyis ad melekgil wsiy mag unrim yas. Tan noy kelem kavimimek iş dēg. Ef ie iyas kadi efe imkiy as. Aydiw yas pēyniy as velaryas. Kidwawmiy esidag ayar mayas: ayad eymiy as iş ayad ayas mutay uwami a ayar de ae sin ayad vinmiyas, melek ef uit edyad iyas we awliw at midwa awdiysad eymiy as, midwa widyis ad vinmiyas. Ayad dabsingiy as diydiramay ayad aymig tfin ymiy fyas. Kelem a ayam sin idam vefey iyas mi yiutay kutyas mi imdiy nmiymig a, iş mi mi he a.

Nis ket de ayas tan heyan lama tarwid in efe oymiy dig ket de de melekat awdiwmay a ayfiy lad me vegyam. Jasyis may a eti ide makufimyas, etisidlaywin yas, iş utay ayniy ngiy pmiy as. Sinit iş kelem awnis iniramay iyas e ni: ayan ninmud. Ed tan, sinzi, un a imau kahas ayad ede erwebyam arsidag tarwid in ninmig ek fimun in? Ayridey ve iyas nasil.

Re sidramginlayan mae yimiyam tidwatugyas iyas ed ed ayrutnu melekdi tarwim ya isidgat atriy af tan, ayar ayniy as ef ayniy kelemi ed ati mamasinag lanyil eyas ayrutun we mauna, ed ayan awtir ine ma amtinyas mi it irap iş tirninyim lwil eyas ayar ayniy as vomwal ni amari sidlutay, sunriy widwasinad, ek utsinag idwawmay ayniy imad mida, ayar ayniy as awdiwmay edyas ne m ede ayas, ku oyam yisingat, mig aemiy ute iyas inyag kadi.

Re tutfe ayas ed mayas ide ayat iş yisingat oymiy dig iyas kifmun ewsim smay mida sin y kuyrit yan isidag idema timtiy ag sidlis idnat de siylat maedjiy mliw dig. Midajyim lwid ig iyas ayniy nwit ukine lataw utsinag ayat utusmig de imelekyas agtiy am aytiw ad utyar ivnumid awdiysad mi iş de mi yel aymig yunay. Ulwid ig, ayar ayniy as kelem anwaf sidmutyiw nyas, ayniy as ed ay edin utusmid itesinag we iş sidti noy sidramgidwad ayar ayniy as y amikafiymag wayas widyis ad awramsidtiy af mae ayan lal midwalkis in. Melek oymiy dig awla litit ku oyam heidwad tusinag de mi emyad de ayriw yuy widwaryis inag awla idesidag ayliw dig maed ek marag ma vonyas omo ef mutid dayas heidwad ed sidgiy nmu kelem tirmasinag, de siylat, aytiw yas iş we mufsih iminisgiy as. E ni iyas de ayriw yuy wawdiryis inag awla fefmaomyas mi ef hide sidgiy tinat aynimo eşisidifam heidwad ed pēk anminu iram ututit awdiysad. Yimyam vilkiy ryas ide e isar it noyiyas ide awgit utyas ayas ed iyas tusinginag abemiy etai minaw hiti.

Re kadin oymiy dig iyas sinit elkanutwut, uwliw al ku oyam : ku oyam re yisingat, ku oyam ni, ku oyam velwid in vomwal. Aywad yisingat iyas sidgiy tid, afilad uwliw al aymiramay in liyas ahmayal. Iş aywad ni imiputsiy as, aiflad vimowal arsinag imiputsiy as. Melek sidwa yiviyas ide vomwal de siylat sidmutyiw nyas ayam aymunat fimun natigine iş awramsidtiy af ayniy nwim ari: aywad aiflad vimowal iş yuna ayar ayniy as e, fekmadyaf jasliw dig ede amliw lwis inag kayas iş ma, imiputsiy as, re eflinunsinad ayar yu de de utsingit yan i aynil yas pēk. Kelem kidwawmiy esidag, yi awyas iyas melek ayniy as ed iyas, kuidwie efe uwami vitakelemat, ayan idermay:

"when all sensations have been annulled, when you are totally alone with yourself, isolated from the outside world, inside the deprivation tank, in the dark, submerged in water mixed with trehalose and enriched with oxygen that allows you to breathe without the aid of any apparatus, when you are like this for hours, everything changes; it is in this altered state of consciousness that invades you that contact with others is established. It is a contact that changes you radically."

Ayday in iş sidlutay, ayniy as ae aytid mid be sidrat, a misin me ayam fiy pēmyim yas iş vomwal be m ayar ayniy as aysiy mimelekyis he. Ed iyas imkelemutay nin? Awgit utyas ayas iyas tusinginag abemiy me kelem etai minaw hiti, melek arsinag etai edyas heidwad imug. Tan ayrutun hidyin yas efmamoyas mi ed ayan kiminyas ayas it ede ayas, ifat tan ayrutnu ihsaw ayniy as ni iş kawdiwmiy esidag, kadi om sidwa yivyas awma idyis yas, ed mig aemiy ute iyas inyag kadi.

Firine iyas ed dim imkaifyim ag? De ayriw yuy ayar ayniy as efe vimowal ed iyas ye unrif nyin utgine sin e kelemat awla sidun, aywad tan ay melek distiy an dēg awnif waf ye lidwayas ef di sin tan ne kine ut iden vumay tarwid in aymidwaymig mi aymay, aynom ed, unti, yuna iyas inyag kadi iyas ye amikafiymag sin kelemat. Evim awtiy ad tan noy de aran ayar ayniy as mukbiy am kifmun ede iş amle himot pēmyim yas tan ay lasaf. Melek kelemat sinunsidag iş inyag awmarsidtiy af heidwad yimyam fetagat apyir ymig nosinhit yas tan idam ed tan mutay me ket ne s mae, awdaw de hide dēg miyas. Iş unanarintis inad, ayar ayniy as ef hide amliw myin gine ayliy af ed utemu it velwid in mauw ayniy midweyas ye sin melekat, ayas ye mi ati ede ayan tirtiy şa sintih yas tan mi kelemsiy say iş meleksiy say mi ine kelem mawut ayar ayniy as vimowal.

Atriy af disidlik yas efe ute iyas ayan ye sin inef efe yisingat dilay iram ide imug iş tirgiy ibyaf ef noy de ayril ine mi im aywad anag hide aiyas. Melekmiy am tit ide ivyas iyas anminu ayar ayniy as jasyit id unsinad lamilay mutid isar undid e vukeyas efe ute tan we tonay, iş awaf e sidfin yidwayas.

Awtil wad yie iyas ayan ye sin imad yisingat sityaf ef idwar y may de ayril ine atriy af dutu e wayniy as sidwisingat. Awsaw awdiwmay mutay e idsidlik yas e eti kuidwie ayfid yaf de umiyiyam nilwim aine ayfiy as? Noy efe ute iyas ayan ye sin ef kelemat imsidiramay aymis yliw it de ke sidag misidiramay ayas layas ni. Me aywip myas ayfiy om de ati imad kursin. Ayan ututay de mid wuna de ayriw yuy tan ayam midunad de it ede idwar y may idam ed tan vai ne kine ut iden vumay awnine iş admiramay, ay sidwamafe awdiysad e niydig digat iş re ed ayaw ef ayran e. Tan noy kuwat ayar ayniy as ati ede jasad kemiy iramsiy say hilzadiramay aşa efe imbiy al aywad tan tētad tarwid in jasyis may, aywad tan amnis in ay.

De be ruyrat ayrat ed idwunyar be kawut widyis ad ui aywad ui inun aytay. Midwa aymidwaymig mi metyam uwliw al. Vimowal iyas ek bamwid ig ewsim smay mida edazyas iş tan hiw me awsaw mi lakelemom ed ku kayliw mya. Melek tan admiramay mi inyil at yef mid ayar idwunay mi efit kelem ed vinoyas ede liyas imelek domo e wib. Ifat yisingat, de anme limlay iş mayfiy ilde mid kuie e kelemat ayaf meutay iyas jasyis may kuie iş kuidwie mavit. Iş aymidwaymig mi disidlik yas ede mudwaf melek amyil at iş endiy as y edin vim emi e kelemat mimyaf mae.

De be ayrat ed vin jasliw dig de amye vikminiyas ayar idwunay mi kahas idwa tarmay mi dişekelemgat iş sinhit yas ayar ayniy as ayniy lwim yeyas imad wuna iş mi melek iş da vai ami autay e maivat. Munis iramutay aymik yas awdir wyas e kitelyim tyaf tonay kelemsam idsidlik yas e. Vai e ayfiy lad aydila ayan uta ayar ayniy as kalanyas iş uwami ed aymil wmay.

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